I didn't exactly know how to celebrate my 4 year blogiversary. I haven't felt like much of a blogger lately. I've only published 7 blogposts this year. That's a very embarrassing number knowing that there are times where I managed to post 25 blog posts in one month. I know we're supposed to be celebrating my little corner of the internet but life hasn't been very exciting lately. I guess this blogpost will be more of a life update than a celebration but I am in the process of trying to get my life together so do expect quite a few cheerful posts in the near future.

I started this blog over 4 years ago. I had no idea what I was doing but I quickly fell in love with blogging. It's been my way of documenting my life. Life has been one hell of a roller coaster ride with more downs than ups but I've always tried to keep my blog as happy and cheerful as I can. I guess one gets to a point where you just need to take a break from everything and that's exactly what I decided to do. I wasn't sure what I was doing with my blog anymore, school was getting hectic and life wasn't getting any better. I just got overwhelmed by everything and thought stepping away from my blog for a while was the best option. I don't think I ever fully recovered from my break because my blog posts became less frequent when I came back from my break.

2015 was such a bad year for me. I don't know how I managed to make it through it. 2016 was okay and 2017 was slightly better. Things weren't great but it could've been worse. Unfortunately, things took a turn for the worst at the end of November last year and it feels like everything keeps going downhill. There are so many things happening that are out of my control and the simplest way to put it is that everything just sucks right now and I'm not even being dramatic.

My goal for 2018 was to just have fun and make money. I haven't made money but I have been trying to have fun by actually participating in life. You may have noticed that I've been quite active on my YouTube channel which is one of the few things that's been going my way this year. The downside of doing all these things is that they only bring temporary joy. Which is why I'm changing my goal for 2018 to finding happiness.

At this point in my life I feel lost and confused. Almost as though I'm just drifting without a purpose and trust me it's a very sad way to live. I got to a point where I had to decide whether I want to give up or try harder. So, this is my second attempt at this life thing. I'm giving myself and my blog a second chance. I just want to be able to have my little corner of sunshine and happiness.

Right now, at this very moment, I'm still sad and life is a disaster but I'm working on changing my mindset. I'm sorry for this long and boring blog post. I just needed to get all of these things out of my system. From now I'll be sending positive vibes and hopefully the universe will do the same. I will also working on accomplishing my 2017 goals so that's exciting!

Thank you to every person who reads my blog. Here's to many more years in the blogoshpere!

I started the year 2017 just like every other year, with a list of goals and a positive attitude. However, this year has been nothing like the other years. The past few years haven't been the easiest and I went through difficult challenges. I was able to overcome some of those challenges but I have always battled to let go. I believe that this is the year when I began letting go of everything that has happened and focusing on what's ahead.

The first 6 months of 2017 have also taught me a number of things about myself. I'm at a point in my life where I have to make important decisions and that's making question things I've always believed were right. I'm also learning that I don't have to have everything figured out, I'm still young and there is no correct time in life where you have to have things all figured out.

My main goal at the moment is to be happy, genuinely happy. I'm still figuring out what this really means and just focusing on things that bring me joy.

The next few months I'll be focusing on Van Street Media(my social media agency), Sempiternal Adventures, school and most importantly, myself. Taking care of yourself is not selfish and I've discovered that it's one of the most important aspects in life. 

I guess there is a something intriguing about feeling lost, that's when you discover the most about yourself.

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If not now, then when? I have recently realised that I'm am always putting things off until the last minute. When I procrastinate I can end up not getting anything done. With so much to do around us I've come to realise that I am not the only person who does this. Many of us end up not accomplishing anything, even the things we have no problem doing.

This is, unfortunately, a problem because time is not on our side. Seconds quickly turn into minutes and minutes into hours and before you know it you're a senior citizen, with your whole life behind you. Regretting not doing all the things you could've done and not have grabbed every opportunity with both hands. I'm not trying to scare anyone, I'm just stating the facts.

A famous quote says " People wait all week for Friday, all year for Summer, and all life for Happiness." The clock is ticking and there is no time to time for waiting. In my eighteen years of life I have learnt a few things about this, which I shall list for you :

• If the is anything you ever want to do the best time is now. Don't put it off because it will remain undone.

•Don't waste your time trying to impress anyone, this is your life and you choose how you want to live it. "Those who mind don't and those who matter don't mind. "

• Don't over think anything, life is too short for that. It's better to try something and know the results rather than spending the rest of your life wondering what could've been.

• If you don't like something don't do it. Doing something you don't enjoy doing will take away too much of your time and happiness. Sometimes you need to consider your wellbeing.

• Things don't always go as planned and sometimes things just don't go your way but when things fail, you need to move on. Appreciate what failure has taught you, it's not always easy but come on, you only live once. Don't waste it reminiscing your past failures.

The problem is that we think we have time. We think we can do things later but that later sometimes turns into never. We need to realise that we are mortal beings and our days are numbered. It's time to start living your life to the fullest and doing things that make you happy. If you ever second guess yourself, take a moment and ask yourself, "If not now, then when? "

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